This feels like home. Like I was born to live
this life, in this culture, or maybe just with these people, or maybe
just this way. I love Iquitos, and as we prepare to leave for the
jungle it will be hard to say goodbye. Hard to say goodbye the the
motorcars that never stop moving, even at 3am. Hard to leave the
woman’s prison where I watched a guard play volleyball with the
prisoners and even return on her days off to hear the Word of God.
Hard to leave Eleana, from the youth group and the freedom and growth
she’s been walking in this past week (though I might sneak a ride on
her motorcycle before I go).
this life, in this culture, or maybe just with these people, or maybe
just this way. I love Iquitos, and as we prepare to leave for the
jungle it will be hard to say goodbye. Hard to say goodbye the the
motorcars that never stop moving, even at 3am. Hard to leave the
woman’s prison where I watched a guard play volleyball with the
prisoners and even return on her days off to hear the Word of God.
Hard to leave Eleana, from the youth group and the freedom and growth
she’s been walking in this past week (though I might sneak a ride on
her motorcycle before I go).
So many things I love. But mostly I love that I never stop learning, I never stop growing, that God always has more.
Probably one of my biggest struggles the past two weeks has been a heart divided.
Divided in ministry to the community, ministry to the team and then all
the logistics that can consume leadership. I wondered if I’d always
feel spread so thin and thus insufficiant in every area. So I’ve been
asking God, not to take things away, but to give me more.
Divided in ministry to the community, ministry to the team and then all
the logistics that can consume leadership. I wondered if I’d always
feel spread so thin and thus insufficiant in every area. So I’ve been
asking God, not to take things away, but to give me more.
And He’s been faithful. Last night before dinner I went to spend
time with the Lord on our roof and He placed upon my heart this desire
to speak at the youth meeting at the local church. I struggled for a
good 2 hours because we already had told them we didn’t have anyone to
share and we were in fact, not going. Having a word meant burdening
people. It meant taking away from team time, it meant some people
going to bed late when they were already exhausted. It meant I could
inconvience everyone and the word could fall flat.
time with the Lord on our roof and He placed upon my heart this desire
to speak at the youth meeting at the local church. I struggled for a
good 2 hours because we already had told them we didn’t have anyone to
share and we were in fact, not going. Having a word meant burdening
people. It meant taking away from team time, it meant some people
going to bed late when they were already exhausted. It meant I could
inconvience everyone and the word could fall flat.
It didn’t fall flat. But even if it had, God revealed to me that not only am I willing to take risks in which I might fail, but that I can give in abundance to both my team and the community
as the word ended up being for both groups. Maybe this doesn’t seem
like a big deal, but it’s shown me so much about what He wants to do.
What He’s offering me to take part in if I just say ‘yes.’ And how
faithful He is in providing MORE. What if we all believe that God was ALWAYS ENOUGH?
as the word ended up being for both groups. Maybe this doesn’t seem
like a big deal, but it’s shown me so much about what He wants to do.
What He’s offering me to take part in if I just say ‘yes.’ And how
faithful He is in providing MORE. What if we all believe that God was ALWAYS ENOUGH?
