I was thinking about how long it has been since I have left for this trip. I was reminded of the day that I left for training camp. That day, I once thought, was one I would always hate. While leaving to come on this adventure I was scared, anxious, upset, and lost. I was a girl who needed to be a freed woman, yet had no clue. I leaned on my own strength and my own understanding. I served and loved God without knowing how much He loves me and how much He wants me to persevere. All these things sound pretty awful don´t they? Yeah, well things change.
After two months in the Amazon Jungle, serving beautiful people while worshipping our beautiful God, I am no longer that girl.
I am now a woman of God.
I am now free.
I now love my Daddy while knowing how much He loves me in return.
I now know my God has plans to prosper me.
I now know who I am; my identity.
I now know how to lean on my Father in all circumstances.
I now know the voice of my Father.
Now I look back onto that same day and I see God moving. I see His excitement as the new chapter He planned for my life was just beginning. I see my Daddy comforting me as I cried and as I hurt. And most of all I see the chains that I had wrapped around me slowly slipping. The chains that I had once THOUGHT were locked to my ankles came loose. The "locks" that kept those chains so tight were not locks at all. They were me. And now I know the choice that I, MYSELF, have. I have the choice to step into the freedom that Christ died for 2,000 years ago. This is my choice, not God´s. He already made the choice to send His son to become every single one of my sins. He already made the choice to adopt me as His daughter. Now I know the rest is up to me. And you know what I have chosen?
FREEDOM! 🙂
